Need I say more…….
It has been a bit since I have been on and I am sorry! But really I have a good excuse, ok well no excuse is a good excuse but it’s all I got.
First I was called 400 miles away to be with my sister as she had her first child. naturally I fell behind on my blogging duties as I am big sis. It is my God given obligation to baby my baby sister the best Ican. It was a great time. I got to be there to hold my sisters hand and wipe her tears,as she joined me in the mommy club! We were always close but now that we are both moms and have been there for each other as we gave birth, I think we are a special kind of close. Also on my trip and as part of my sister duties.I spent one night in the hospital with my little sis so her husband could get some sleep on something other than the Chinese torture chair that was offered to him.
Yes, I am that good of a sister, and we can even make a hospitol fun so I was glad to do it. We chatted and rested, and gazed at the sweet little bundle of new life. After a midnight burger run my sissy and I settled in for a chat, where I brought up some things I had been feeling. I almost fell out of the Chinese torture chair when she threw out the idea that I might be pregnant. Your crazy and half drugged, sleep deprived, andhigh on hormones I quickly shot back. Sure I was tired, yes my breasts felt like they had been through the spin cycle, my gums were bleeding when I brushed, and the smell of cereal made me queezy, but so.
We were done having kids and we had gonethrough allot to come to that decision, so we had been very careful. Plus I had two more weeks until my monthly gift was due to arrive . So I finished my sister duties and came home. Of course this took up alot of my time and I just couldn’t find the time to get anything out, especially a blog post.
Of course when I returned home I had a ton of loose ends to tie up and we don’t even want to talk about the laundry! It took me two weeks to even get to some of my errands. It was a quick stop into target for t.p. and a birthday card when I realized what the date was, which brings me to my second excuse!
There I was in the t.p. isle and all of a sudden the dates became very clear, then like in a movie my sister popped into my head with her theory! So I purchased a test forgot the birthday card and rushed home. Downing a half gallon of water on the short trip home, sliding into the bathroom sideways, and ripping the package with my teeth. Then I waited, tick, tock, tick, tock. The longest three minutes of a girls life.
Well of course there it was staring me in the face… the second pink line!
This wonderful day was fallowed by about three weeks of panic, confusion, sickness, fatigue, mental math, and mood swings! Wich didn’t leave much time or mental capacity to blog!
So there you have it. My excuse’s! While I am still in the throws of the above side effects of the first trimester I figures I at least needed to let you all know I am still alive and full of excuses!
There I was in the t.p.0
Given the combination of the times, and my ridiculous schedule a romantic date with candles, great wine, stimulating conversation , and a hot black dress are not happening this year. I admit in years past I would have been disappointed by the truth surrounding the check book and day timer on this of all days. But this year I can honestly say that I was so happy to share the love with my boys at home, and it only cost $30.00 for a wonderful evening.
Sexy black dresses were not worn, the wine was actually ice water , but there were candles, wonderful conversation, one of my favorite meals, and three of the most wonderful men a girl could ever hope to have at her table.
After a vacation last week, a very expensive trip to the dentist, and the hustle and bustle of February for a bookkeeper the fact I was able to make an appearance at the class party, pull enough glitter and red paper together to make homemade cards, and call to order Chinese was a feet in itself. But after we were all set at the kitchen table, chop sticks in hand, the flicker of left over Christmas candles lighting the sweet faces of my boys I was overcome with joy.
It may not have been the picture perfect valentines date girls dream of, but It was my favorite of them all thus far. Myold jeans provided ample room for dessert, there were no crowds, no one hushed their belly laughs, or had to wait on an overstressed waiter for a refill. There was just us, just three men and a princess enjoying eachother more than anything.
It is times like tonight wrapped in a blanket watching a Disney movie with my family that it hits me. I can work very hard and buy them a chocolate filled car, or a five foot heart on any given holiday, but it is always the moments that all I have to give is myself that I am surprised to get the ever sought after “mom you are the best mommy in the whole world”
We can all get busy, life can throw us the most amazing curve balls, and well money comes and goes, but today I am reminded that love truly does last forever. Your kids mot likely cannot tell you the gifts you purchased two years ago that broke the bank, but I assure you that the moment you stood before them with only your heart, and love to pour out they will for ever hold in their hearts, and take with them.
Happy Valentines Day Moms. You are all amazing and doing a wonderful job, just remember ….”the greatest of these is Love” and it is especially true in mothering as I found out over take out this very evening.