It’s only two little words, two letters, & one syllable. It seems so simple, yet I can’t seem to spit it out N-O ……..
If you need anything just ask Jenna, and people do all the time! Don’t get me wrong I am not some meek door mat of a woman that is getting taken advantage of here. Quite the opposite, You see when I am approached with an idea, or request it is kind of a high for me. Before the person even can finish their offer my head begins to speed ahead on how I could do the job they need done & do it well. It is as if my brain goes into over drive & all I see is the project on the biggest of scales.
This leads to me feeling guilty for not being able to fulfill my own fantasy of how the job should turn out, or I feel bad that I am neglecting my other projects in order to -God forbid fall short of my own goal.
This practice as left me with a ton of uncompleted projects & a whole lot of guilt to go with them. If I would just choose what I take on a little more carefully I think I might be able to have some peace, as well as a few really good projects that I am proud of instead of a lot of ones I could have done better.
Sounds like I got it all figured out right? Well just wait until someone asks me to to something, and watch me add another ball to the act, which will eventually cause all the balls to fall straight on my head
It’s a fact I am a no say no-er and I need help. I recognize it, I want to change, but something deep inside me just has control over some link between my brain screaming “NOOOOOOOO” and my mouth that always say “Yes, sure I would love to” with a smile non the less. I need a support group or something! But I would probably end up running the stupid thing & filing the last spot in my schedule ! -Sick I know, just sick!